Can I Deal…?

June 10th. It’s May 30th. That means I have over 10 days before I can get my daughter into the children’s hospital for her ultrasound testing. I am a little overwhelmed. The wait is exhausting. I often find myself staring at her wondering is something wrong? Do I not know it? Is she in pain? Is she suffering? My head is freaking out, but my heart stays firm in Christ that every little thing will be alright. Many of you have reached out to me, wondering what is going on, what is happening, is she alright and the truth is we do not have the answers for you at the moment. It is truly a blessing that you all care so much, from the strangers to the immediate family, we love you all.
The truth is, I have only told close friends and family the situation. So I thought I would explain to the everybody elses the situation a little further, so you know what we are going through, and you can pray for Baby K.
When Kinsley was VERY young, probably only a few weeks old, we noticed her ear was a little different. Like she had two lobes. It didn’t seem to bother her, besides the fact she played with the different ear, a little more. We reported it to her doctor immediately after discovering the deformity. (The NICU did not notice it in her hearing test.) They did not seem alarmed at the time and we moved forward with the idea it was nothing more than a growth inconsistency in the womb. Well, fast forward to her nine month appointment, the doctor seemed more concerned about that ear this time around. Her doctor explained to me that our ears are formed from the urinary tract when babies are developing in the womb. Who knew, right? Well now, she is concerned that her kidneys might be effected based on all the extra tissue her ear has. They scheduled us to see a specialist at Scottish Rite (which if you don’t live in Atlanta is the Children’s Hospital here) and go in for an ultrasound accompanied with additional hearing tests. So we learned that the best case scenario would be that she has to have plastic surgery, performed by a pediatric plastic surgeon to remove the extra tissue or lobe around the ear. Worst case scenario, she has something wrong with her kidneys or urinary tract and we move from there. Flashingback to her NICU days, when she was born, many of you know, she had an extremely accelerated heart rate. She was stripped from us, and sent down there almost immediately. However, once she stabilized, they released her to us without figuring out the cause. I am praying that whatever was causing the infection or accelerated heart rate is not because of kidney malfunction or any thing of the sort.
We do not have answers right now, nothing could be wrong, or there could be a lot wrong, we just do not know. We are asking you to join us in continued prayer for her, as we get through these VERY long last 10 days without answers.

Love always,
Baby K and Me

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Do Not Fear…

As Kinsley grows older, I do too, although the physical changes in me do not shine as much as hers do. Today is a milestone for her, as she turns nine months old in just a couple of hours. To me, she is amazing because, to me, she is incredibly close to perfect. However, she has not had it perfectly easy. God has presented her with a couple of challenges in her short life and I am learning slowly that I must not fret at them. I must continue to grow, as she grows, deeper into my faith, and settle further into my relationship with God, in order to remain on both feet during times of turmoil. I do realize that God would never put me, my husband or my child in a situation we could not come out of stronger – not only in our strength but more importantly in our faith and to this, I am given hope.
Today Kinsley had her nine month doctor appointment, and the thing about doctor’s appointments, is you do not always hear what you want to hear. Most of the time, the doctor comes in with good news, however, there are days when the news requires you to sit down. This was one of those sitting down appointments.

Kinsley Nine Months Ago

Kinsley Now
Kinsley has never had it easy, since she was just a few hours old. When she was born I held my baby for an hour, Evan even less, before she was taken away from us, to make that dreaded incubator ride to the NICU. For days we waited for news, only getting to hold her every two hours and only while she was connected to machines. Eventually the wires and tubes were disconnected and we fast forward to nine months later, where our baby has been home, happy and thriving. However, as our children grow we sometimes run into problems, and here we are at another bump in the road. So as a family, Evan, Baby K and I are asking for your continued prays as we face another speed bump and we hope that you will continue to pray and ask God to watch over her until we can get the answers we are looking for.

For I am the LORD, your God, who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.
Isaiah 41:13

Love always,
Baby K and Me

Gone Baby Gone – To Daytona…

Life has been crazy the past couple of weeks, mainly because we have had company but things are quiet again and I finally feel like I have a second to myself to write this blog. A few hours ago, we returned home from Daytona Beach after being gone for four days. It feels good to get things back to normal, finally, and I am looking forward to completely unpacking and washing the sand out from all the baby things. Fun fun.
I basically wanted to use this particular blog to say happy mother’s day and share some photos from our vacation. I hope you enjoy them, and I hope you enjoy the last few hours of this great holiday to celebrate all the amazing women in all of our lives, the ones still here, and the ones that have left us too soon.






































Love always,
Baby K and Me